SO... TODAY

Yeah I have been on a break from my writing.  I feel sad about it, but so much has came up.  I have been on a constant battle against so many things.  I feel like I am trying to control everything, but I shouldn't try...

This past few weeks have been awesome in seeing you use me.  I had a great time at Ignite with the students at Etiwanda.  I was encouraged to see London pray for my sister Kelly and help revive her faith in you.  Then it has been amazing to see friends at school and just spend time with them.  I thank you Lord, for the opportunities of learning and teaching.  I did my first lesson at church and it was great.  I need to stop clicking the marker. =p  Then it was awesome to go to "The Send" with Jenny.  I did not expect it to be as fruitful as I thought.  But all I want to do is share your word every where I go.  I met some awesome people and got closer to them.  I thank you Lord.

Lord I thank you for my life.  Yesterday was so tiring.  I woke up so early, 5am, and I needed to do so many things.  I really wish I could have spent my birthday with friends and people, but I had to work and take my Theology Mid-term.  I did not do as great, but you know me, I like to be a prefectionist.  I try so hard and when it comes to ministry and if I had a family, those things should be first.  Especially, family when that time comes.  I thank you Lord.  It had been a rough couple of weeks.  I need you help.  I applied to the scholarship on my birthday and I hope you honor it.  I would appreciate your strength and mighty arm in my life right now.  I also want to say I finally took your advice to move in with Juan.  It was a tough night, but I will slowly adjust and I do hope that I can practice spanish with them.  I need your peace and joy in the midst of this change.  I also need you help to find a place when I am down in Rancho Cucamonga.  It would be nice to not be so divided in taking care of my car.  i need you help Lord.  To be honest nothing is easy.  Sin is a hard thing to deal with.  No longer am I looking to myself, but you.  Sometimes it feels so hard, because I am so tired Lord.  I feel so worn out.  I want to spend time with you and not have to worry about things.  You are my hope when it comes to the struggles of life.  I want my future children and wife to know that in every season to look to you.  Nothing is done without you.  You are living.  I want you to steal my heart Christ.  No one is as great as you.  You are God and you are my provider.  Lord I lift up my prayers to you.  Please listen to my heart and soul.  I do not even understand it all, but its yours.  I am asking you to fill my life with you.  Holy Spirit take me away.  No book or person can fill me up with life.  Only your presence and Word.  May I always pray to you.  Lord may you give me the heart to continue to pray.  Help me share your word. Help me be in you!!!  Thank ABBA.  I LOVE YOU!!!

The Past Past PAST!!!!

Time has been so quick this past few weeks.  I am going to do my best to back track and recap everything.
Well this week 10/15-10/19 has been interesting.  God has been really holding my hand.  (Thank you).  As I have been meeting with my students I have seriously been blessed.  Their situations are so unique and they all struggle or have a thorn in their flesh.  I have been learning so much and I have been thankful to be used.  I really hope that they are doing well.  Because of this, I have been really seeking the Lord to help me out.  To strengthen me and realize that I need him.  I am thankful that he has been increasing my hours of work and increasing my experience.  I am thankful that Jen recognizes my hard work and I hope that I can go to school there with support.  Lord may you move Kevin's heart to accept me as a staff member in the future.

I have been praying for Lance, because I know that a lot is on his mind.  I hope that you may open up his heart Lord.  I hope that you make strengthen both him and his sister.  I hope that you continue to strengthen Travis and challenge Kevin.  May the youth at Step With Christ open to your love.

This week I finally got to hangout with Biola friends.  I feel so distant, but when have I been close.  Just like Jason said, he came to know you.  So did I, my first steps on campus was my calling to you. I never had it easy to find identity, but you make me everything Lord.  I am thankful.  I was glad to share with Zack and Brice about my situation.  May you bless them.  I was also glad to hangout with my sisters in Christ.  I hope to continue to just be a brother in you towards everyone.  Also I cannot forget spending time with Daniel and Kate.  I am glad to hear about their dreams and Daniel's future urban ministry.  Maybe him and Israel and even I can see your works.

The conferences that I went to were awesome.  Just a reminder that I need to pray.  I need to listen to you.  I need to not lose sight of you.  I feel it so easy to fall away from you.  I am prone to leave the God I love.  I want to break because I do not want to lose you.  I hope Father than I may pray to you. I want to draw my own circles, big or small.  I want to pray for your love.  Save my family.  Save me, save this generation.  Lord we need your mercy...we really need you to forgive us.  As I go into ministry, I hope to see you more and more.  I hope to listen more and more.  I hope to be your son and friend.

I thank you for United in Christ.  They are struggling a bit and a lot they want to do.  Give them strength.  Give them heart to find you and not activities.  Help them in their evangelism and may the enemy have nothing on the future Baccalaureate.  This has never been done, but guess what your God, nothing is new to you.

We are jars of clay that have treasures in them.  We are fragile and easily broken or even looking funky, but we have Jesus Christ in us.  He is our value.

10/8-10/12
This week was intense.  I was being attacked like crazy.  As I recall, I just let things be and had not much care of what I needed to do to fight my "flesh", "my ambitions" and so on.   We had celebrated my dads bday at red lobster.  It was the first time in forever that we have come together to eat dinner outside of home.  It was fun and funny to see my dad look like a dork dancing as we sang.  Like always he was trying to pushing on me, but he got a taste of his own medicine lol.  I was able to talk to Young about some important issues.  The fact that Isaiah 41:14 was so powerful and that so many Christians need to be reminded of who God really is.  To be reminded of their sins and that they need a sinner.  We talked about future marriage and what that looks like.  It wont be easy, especially financially, so need to talk to wife about that one.  We also talk about how finances are all in God's hands.  That is why I started to pray for trust and understanding of how I am a worm.  I need to be reminded that messages are needed to be simple and plane with a direct idea.  Also need to pray for clubs and ministry on campuses.  I visited BASIC and it was awesome to just see.  It is different from United in Christ, but Lord you are using them in their own way.  May you strengthen them and may you help Daniel and Esther be confident in the truth of your word and working in them and out of them.  Also it was fun to make dinner this weekend for Esther, Joe, and Lance.  Saturday nights at church is fun.


10/1-10/5
This week was about my sister...I met the Lord at Starbucks.  Then on the ride home.  I shall not forget.