Well I want to start by officially saying good morning Lord. It was hard to get today started due to being at the apartment and sleeping on the floor. Then Tyler was sick. Nevertheless, this morning I was thankful that you saved me in my dream from doing something I would not want to do. So I will praise the Lord for interrupting my dream and then I was later dreaming about being Goku and saving my family from a space ship that the government had. Man, what crazy dreams. Then having to later get sucked into a specific kitchen cabinet that lead me to a world in which I would have to get sucked into a huge hole in the ground to fight some one. But I now forget...
Well enough with the dreaming and now with the real stuff. Lord I want to say my desire to hangout with people that I want to hangout with is tough. I will say I was disappointed and yes, I was trying to persuade Sarah to come so I can spend time. I am wanting to get to know specific women to start remembering what it is like to date and actually find the right person in my life. In one month I will be 22 and it would be nice to step into a new season of relationships, specifically with a girl. But, before that I know that I need to get a job and continuously talk to you about my sins. I need to listen to you. I need to spend time with you Lord.
Yesterday was awesome in which I met with old friends and got a phone interview with a real estate firm. I felt really comfortable talking to the women and I did not realize until after that I was sharing my life with her. It was hard to listen to her over the phone, but I was glad to have it. I am hoping to receive this job. It is good pay, good experience, and good hours. Well Lord, may your will be done. You know exactly what to do. I mean if I get this job, will my mornings still be spent with you? Will become stress? Will joy arise from it? I want to say Lord, there is a sense of victory in you. This battle is ending in your hands. The success is not based on my own decision, but obedience is. Jesus, I have been taking so much joy in being able to give up. I have taken joy in the fact that everyday is not a high. That when I open the Bible and just continue reading from where I left off, I am going to get to know you more, not just expecting to read a life manual and use you.
This war is over. The cross has paid it Jesus. Now battles may be lost or won along this journey, but surely the war is over. May this be a reminder that even though I do not know what will be the outcome of this whole job search, that I am trusting in the Lord. May this be a reminder that my life is so complex and hidden, that I am also dealing with my "flesh". May this be a reminder that I am taking 18 units, an internship, $600 worth of bills, living at home where there is much healing needed, youth group, students I mentor, and people I know. Jesus life is so complex and my soul is thirsting to know you and be filled with your Spirit. Jesus may you establish the works of my hands. Yes, Jesus through your blood, may the Father send the Holy Spirit and establish the works of my hands. May I see the beauty of the Lord and be amazed.
Lord now that I think about it yesterday I read how you told the disciples to feed the people. They questioned immediately how? There are 5000 men and that is not including women and children. But with five loaves of bread and two fish you feed everyone. Yes, Lord, if you place me in the field to be in, may I feed people the living word for man does not live by bread alone but by the Word of God. Lord I am going to go onto campuses tomorrow and thursday. Am I doing your will? May you be my righteous path that leads me to what I need to do just like you guided Paul and other believers. Lord you can doing anything, but it is you who knows when the rain needs to drop and how to judge. You are God and I am not. May I read your word and be in joy of what you have done in the lives of early believers.
Thank you Jesus. Victory is in your hands and may I share with people who won my battle once again. May those who doubt, be amazed by the power of my King, Priest, and Prophet. May they know I daily desire my Savior's presence.
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