To Know

It is obvious Lord, that no matter what I want to do, the chances of me bearing fruit of the Spirit is slim.  Lord, what can man boast in?  What can I boast in?  As easy or hard as I receive something, I can lose it.  As I continue to listen to John Pipers messages on Romans 7:14-25, I am grateful for the gospel.  O what a wretched man I am.  I do not know when I will fall into the enemies deception, but I do not want to just give up to the enemy like a coward.  I want to fight and wage war by knowing the Truth.  I want to boast in knowing the Lord.

Thus says the Lord: “Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches, but let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth. For in these things I delight, declares the Lord.” -Jeremiah 9:23-24

Lord, when you spoke to Jeremiah and Israel, you continuously listened and put yourself out to your children.  But, like you mentioned, their hearts were "uncircumcised".  I will be honest that my heart is uncircumcised in many areas.  I tend to always want to be boastful, prideful, lustful, and selfish.  Lord, I will confess that it is not easy to deal with these matters.  The world makes it so glossy, so required, and so desired.  No matter what I try to do, it has been engraved since my birth.  Original Sin is that real and this "flesh" is the being that I wage war against; nevertheless, losing and winning has been a daily part of my life.

Surely, I can just ask to know you more.  Jesus as I go into ministry, I realize there is so much darkness and falseness in this world.  It almost makes me not want to do ministry.  It is ridiculous how bad things are.  I see the field and I almost find it helpless.  I find myself powerless and wondering what the heck can I do?  I do not even have the strength to help myself. Yet, and I say this in Truth, the Lord's hand can make anything impossible seem possible.  Jesus can you make Psalm 90:17 come to be.  May this prophetic Word be the Truth in my life.  May I boast in the Work the Lord gives me because of what Jesus has done, will do, and is now doing.  May I see your beauty!  Lord, shine your face upon me and be merciful.  Lord, just like David, may I learn to know you more.  Lord just like David's servants that carried the Ark of the Covenant, can you help me and may I give offerings of thankfulness.  May your Word be engraved in my heart and in my spirit.  May I know You!

Let the beauty(favor) of the Lord our God be upon us,
    and establish the work of our hands upon us;
    yes, establish the work of our hands! -Psalm 90:17

Holy Spirit, guard me.  Truth will be said, I feel the temptation ready to make me fall.  Holy Spirit, my flesh is pressing on a level that my spirit recognizes as the beginning attacks.  I do not want to fall and just Paul said I will.  Just like Peter I will.  Thank You God for the Lord Jesus Christ that died and carried the horrible "flesh" with Him.  I cannot express this Truth the best extent, but you know.  Holy Spirit, Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna.  May I know You!