Out Cry

I wont deny it Lord, I am looking at the situation as if I cannot handle it.  Or in better terms, that you are not watching over me.  My hope is that I can see what you see.  I can love what you love.  Lord you saw me going to sleep last night and saw me wake up this morning.  Surely, you saw on my heart the trouble that is coming.  I am telling you Lord, I only have two months worth of money to pay for bills.  I do not know how to go about this.  This is really not a cause to ask for support, because everyone is looking for support.  Lord I am asking for support from you though.  I am asking how I will be able to pay bills, food, and gas.  I am asking how I will be able to attend school.  I am asking how I will finish my assignments.  I am asking how I will serve at church and go into ministry.  Lord so much is jumbled.  The puzzles look like they can all fit into a place, but I would not know if that picture would be the best one.  I pray Jesus that in your mighty name that you can start closing doors and opening doors into my life so I can follow you.  I believe in the power of the resurrection and the creator of the universe.  So in Christ I ask for faith.  I ask for an out pour of support from your heavenly realms.  I can either speak words of cursing or words of blessing.  I am so glad that you used me to encourage my sister and if there where others as well.  In that same power of witnesses I ask for you grace.  I ask to be steadfast in your love and enjoy everything that you are.  Surely, the enemy would want me to refocus my thoughts, but in Christ may the living Word empower me to do your will where ever you call me.  Jesus in your love I ask for mercy and justice.  I ask that may I walk humble with you.  May the love that empowered your disciple reign in me.  May my enemies fall before the King of all creation.  I ask Lord once again to hear my outcry for continual movement.  

After 30min
I turn to Psalm 90 this morning and I am glad that I am digging deep into it.  I am glad you are speaking through it.  Well it is your Word and it just depends on your Spirit doing the work in Christ.  The Psalmist opens up reminding himself of your character.  You are not just God, but our Creator who is continually making us a new.  In an instant we can become dust, that is truly one thing I can tell an atheist is true.  But as much as you can take a man in his sleep, you are able to wake him to life with your Spirit.  Jesus your glory reveals our sins, but because we are adopted from the darkness, you are continuously making us new in you.  Lord, I might have legalized my life so much and I have sinned before you.  Everyday is a day of judgement, but because I am surely being made new in you, I can confess the goodness of my Savior.  Jesus, my foundation is in you.  My days are numbered and I act like I do not think you know that.  Of course my God knows my days.  Of course God knows when to use me.  I hope that in you Lord I may remind myself of your glory when I awake in the morning.  I pray Lord that your love, mercy and grace may meet me like a fragrance that I cannot image.  Lord touch my heart.  Lord save me.  O Savior, relent!  I can say that my heart is yours, but you know the darkness that it carries.  Lord write on my heart the law you call me to follow.  Lord write on my heart Jesus.  Once again, I say Jesus, take me.  I ask in the name of Jesus Christ to be sealed up in Jesus love.  May I be satisfied when I wake up.  May I see your unveiling love.  May I sing throughout all my days.  Lord as much as I have been in trouble, can you restore to me what you see fitting.  I ask for mercy Father.  I ask for mercy!!!  I ask for your double portion! I ask for your favor and your concern! I ask for your movement in my life.  May joy of the gospel compel my heart.  May I take heart and treasure everything that you are.  Lord my finally prayer that comes from this Psalm is this, "May the favor, the beauty, of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish work of our hands for us- yes, establish the work of our hands."  I speak Words of truth!!  What was cursed by Adam falling is now re-created in the image of its Creator.  Now the work of God is our hope.  Now the beauty of the Lord is all that we seek.  So Jesus in you I am.  I am broken, I am your child that desires the Truth, the Way and the Life.  I speak blessing over my life.  I speak of triumph because everything is finished.  Lord Jesus Christ only you can establish the work that will come out of these hands.  Only you can make me work.   In faith, I say that I will find work, because in Christ Jesus the joy of the Lord will overcome.  Thank you Jesus for everything.  May I never lose the wonder of the cross.  May I never lose what you have done.  May I lay down my life to be yours.