Need to Find You

I will honestly say thank you Lord for this week.  It has been a blessing.  I have taken joy in walking with you.  That is to say that I have probably sinned throughout my week.  I just woke up from sleeping on the floor and right now I cannot think straight.  I know that on the ride back home from school and when I woke up, I could and can not stop thinking about the fact that in a month of two I will be broke.  I am not working and I should since I have so much to pay for.  I do want to focus on school and the internships, but I am stuck Lord thinking about how to deal with the future.  I need to find a place to live.  I need to find out how I will be driving back and forth.  I need to figure out how will I work then.  I need to figure out where I need to be.  I am wondering if everyday I am pushing back this ticking bomb.  I am going to be 22 years old and yet in some of my family members eyes I look like a fool.  I am driving around and I get tired.  I sleep on the floor.  Lord you do not call me to be poor, but I am left with just you.  Surely, I cannot grow up.  I feel left so behind.  I am asking Lord to make something work.  Make a righteous WAY.  In you Jesus may I live.  Can I find rest and confidence in your absolute truth.  Lord, grab my hand and lead me to your heart.  I know there i so much to worry about Lord, but can I find you.  When I say that I do not mean it literally, but just like wife runs to her husbands arms seeking two things.  The strength and love.  It is a mystery that I do not know yet, but one day.  Jesus in your name may I join you in.  Forgive me and take me in today.  Thank you.