Lord, tonight I have been reading all this theology stuff that is based on Paul's perspective. It is great, but I know Paul would say what gain is of it when Christ is not increased. Lord, I want to say thank you. Thank you for life. Thank you for your redemptive salvation. Right now my heart just wants to lay and rest beside your chest and take joy of being embraced in your arms. Lord have you ever wondered when your Father will let you come? I mean you are in the Father, but only the Father knows that time. I cannot wait to be with you, but I know you desire to have more of your children with you. Lord what is your heart's desire? I can think about it, but would I treasure it? Lord, life is hard. The world is spinning and is spinning that much faster. Disaster is ahead and I can only hope your Spirit can give us the confidence of the Gospel. Surely, your Spirit is in us, but what is it that we feel so distant as well? What is missing? Or what is needed to be put off? I will be honest Lord, right now I feel so glad writing to you. Me being in a coffee shop, I cannot blast "The More I Seek You" and just worship. My heart wants to jump into you. Nevertheless, I know that in a month or two my funds to support me will diminish. I do not know what to say; a part of me wants to walk by faith, yet the other is saying my parents will say told you not to expect so much and see yourself as that type of person. Well, Lord I am your child right? I can tell them that. I will confess that. My sins are ever present, but daily you deal with them. I never want to lose touch of your love. I know at times I will want to run to something I recognize, but you want to show more of yourself. Lord can you show yourself to me more? May I see you in my dreams, in my goals, in my life, in my actions, in my desires, in my hopes, in my future wife, in my children, in my ministry, in my writing, in my quiet time, in my classes, in people I meet, in my mailbox, in many ways. Lord, I say this not wanting to make you follow me, but I want to follow you. I want to experience new revelation and leap out in faith. I want to say my Lord has reminded me who he is and wants me to move, he wants me to stay, he wants me to be still. Jesus, I know that you are God, but did the human side of you ever miss your Father? I mean I know you did on the cross =[. But when you was in the midst of childhood or even ministry, did you have one inch of missing the Spirit. I mean, I do not know if you where constantly filled by the Spirit, but in the Word is makes it seem like you were just as ready in every moment to listen to the Father. But because you were human too, did you ever experience silence? Did you ever long for the Father? I mean right now I feel like that? I feel like I need to ask for help. I mean, you know how much I feel. I feel so alone because I am constantly struggling against my flesh. I understand in my heart that the only treasure I want is to be with you. I desire to be filled with the Father's heart. I desire to move in Spirit, but only you Jesus my Savior can give that life-giving Spirit. Surely I am longing for your double portion. I do not know what I would do with it, but I know you would let me know. I thank you for adopting me into your family. So I will say Abba Father, may you lend me a hand so I can take hold of it. Abba in the name of my Savior, I ask for a full hand of help. May I know your command to love the Lord your God with all my strength, heart, mind, and soul. It is through Jesus that I can find TRUTH, LIFE AND THE WAY IN THIS RE-CREATING WORLD. May I offer myself to you Jesus. May everyday I find new reasons to love you. May I listen when I awake. May I change in Christ.
The Lord is my Sovereign Lord.
His enemies are his footstool.
The nations make sounds against Him,
yet the Lord laughs, ready to judge in His righteousness.
My God does not sit.
He stand before the throne of the Father,
making a Way for the lost.
The anchor is unbreakable.
The Spirit will do His work,
nothing will prevent Him.
Not even death nor sin.
The Lord is love.
He will sit next to the sinner.
He will bend an ear,
Teaching His sons and daughters,
Continuously He writes on their hearts.
The Lord is not finished.
From His mouth the World will spin.
From His Word the dead will rise.
From His breath, everything will come to be.
Jesus may your son walk humbly with you.
May I love mercy and seek justice.
Search my heart and make a dwelling place in me.
I know you will deal with everything in your prefect timing.
The Lord is my God.
My God is alive and will finish His great works in all creation.
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