Time

It has been sometime Lord that I have journal my life.  I know that I have to start a journal for my internship, but I hope you can pour blessings into this expression of my heart.  I first ask to get my days and nights started with the reminder of your Word, so that I can worship you through this area of expression.

Lord, you know my heart and how much I want to be passionate for what you have done on the cross and what your continue to do for me in the temple of your Father.  Surely, this summer has been full of challenges and fears.  My dreams were certainly crushed and my desires were continuously blocked by setbacks and disappointments.  I cannot truly explain the reason why things went out as they did, but I know that your mighty hand was in the midst of all.  I did grow and I did enjoy the company of other believers.  You had open doors into my heart and my life.  You introduced me to some wonderful people and most defiantly allowed people to show me grace.

I am so thankful for my brother Israel.  I am thankful that you used someone like him, may all the glory go to you.  Lord, you stepped in at the right time.  You saved me from utter destruction.  Lord, you saved my family from chaos that could have erupted from the depths of fear.  Surely, I will boast in what the Lord has done.  This is a testimony of God's grace through one of his children.  Nonetheless, I cannot forget the impact.  So sudden, heart pounding, the sound of metal and plastic colliding become my ears fear.  My soul, decided to continuously say, "The Lord is good!"  Surely, I was so childlike and had no idea what to do, I was shaken up, but my soul continued to say such words.  Did I take a second to check my body?  No.  Do I even take time to stop and think? No.   I need to stop and think next time.  Yet, if I had done such actions, I would have fallen into a deeper hole.  Surely, the might hand of God was present when I could not even think.  But, in the end I was not hurt, nor the other person.  As much as I want to be denied, my God knows all and surely is the judge of all.  So I ask Christ, to protect me with your judgement, but not with your wrath.  You are God.

My life is near a cross road and time for a new season is upon arrival.  Surely, this journey will be rough.  Father may your ear turn to me through the prayers of your one and Only Son.  May Jesus Christ be my hope and my grace and my love.  Surely, I seek justice, mercy and faith, but that anchor is in Christ's grace.  I plea based on the Word to be my anchor and true priest.  May my eyes be fixed on what is above and not what is below.  May, I be reminded of your law.  May I learn to discern your law.  May I have truth and grace as a blessing.  May I pray for people.  May I pray for my future.  May prayer become my fruit.  May passion become my fruit.  May compassion become my fruit.  This body that was once dead and now alive through Jesus Christ, is still alive because of Jesus Christ, not my own understanding of it.  Truly, nothing comes from me, but from your Spirit.  May your be gracious to show your face.  May you guide me O Teacher.  May your Spirit, Father, create a new.  My life is in your hands.  May I worship you until my days of old, may my life be a reflection of your Son, may my sinful flesh finish the race become the anchor in my soul.  Guide me O Lord.  O Lord your Love and Strength is my good.  Surely, the Lord hears my cry for holiness and the Son's heart.  Thank You Lord of my Lord.  Consume me in love and mercy and faith.  Time has come.