Something I Wrote

So i was in Chapel this morning praying for some time and i decided to write this:

Lord your Laws are Lovely,

They hold truth and wisdom.

I come knowing that i am a sinner;

My body will be made to ask and dust once again.

How does one see purpose?

How does one know life?

All around is your creation;

I am called very good,

yet, I lack, I fail.

Christ you take my life to be whole,

You use me in your story.

Fear of the world,

It tries to take hold of my mind and heart.

When the ground shakes I cling,

When the seas rock I hold steady,

When the winds blow I take root.

Yet can I do all this?

Does my fear of money, love, lust, and the physical consume me?

You see the wolves in the forest,

You see the robbers planning.

I ask for protection, I ask for grace.

O great Lover of sheep, hold me tight.

Lie next to me at night.

Walk when I walk.

I ask for wisdom, yet where does it lie.

The world seems to dwell in itself, feeding itself;

Yet, when all falls its chaos.

Lord in Chaos, in the noise, where are your Laws.

Where is your Love?

Where is your wisdom?

It seems difficult to find.

I look up to the sky,

I look beneath between the cracks,

I search to the east and west,

but it is nowhere to be found.

I look for it in my literature.

I look for it in my day.

I do not find it,

yet, there it lies;

I see that its in your Word and creation.

Wisdom is located where David sought to see your heart.

Wisdom is knowing fear,

fear of the Lord.

I fear, yes I do.

For when I sin I am ashamed.

The cloak I try to wear is too tin for your eyes.

See through all you can.

Lord, help me fear,

Help me fear my Loving God.

Holy Spirit dwell where I know I cover.

Christ keep to your promises, for I long for them.

Let my prayers be like incest, in your Holy throne.

I want to say "Here I am",

I hear you asking "Do you love me?" three times.

I think of your commands.

I fear where I walk,

But is it you that i fear or the walk?

Help me to distinguish;

Help me to listen.

Calm my mind, calm my storms, calm my heart and soul.

I ask, I seek, I knock.

Close the door where it need to be closed

And open where it be open.

Your my God of teaching,

Your my God of Love.

Help me set my mind and heart on things above,

For I died and my life is hidden in Christ with God.