Job 9

First off i want to say, i am praying for this world. It is crazy what i happening and how much the world is in its birthing pains. Christ will come and know one knows, but sure looks like the world is on the brink of its end. The world is being populated so quick, food is shortening, water is becoming hard to keep clean and in abundance, disease is on its move, the earth quakes in its every moving slumber, the storms that arise are huge, the earth is alive. God's creation is alive, yet what happen to his Love is in it all. God is good, yet the earth has been cursed since the fall of man. God has wiped the earth of sin once before and can do it again. He is the same as yesterday, today and forever. God despises sin, yet his heart is aching for what is happening. He sees his creations seeking perfection, yet it is no where to be found. Only in him can, we see the true love that we are called to be. Sucks to see things happen, and sucks to hear people mock God, yet we are totally missing the point of why all this happens. Our generation is one that is so self-centered and self-seeking. How can we understand reason if it can only be applied to the self. Emotions toy with our inner selves and that is why God gave us the mind of reason, to protect our hearts. Look at this event and many others. Use your mind and heart together to see God and not yourself or things.

Job speaks clearly of how can we judge the judger. Why makes us so special to stand before him with confidence? Is it not the fact that by the words of our fathers that God is to be feared? Can we stand in a pure presence of him? Not even the angels can view him. They cover there faces and there feet. Woe to me that i think i can stand in front of him. If my problems are so huge and think God needs to come to rescue because he has to, then i got it wrong. Job mentions even if i am innocent or pure, my sin is in me. I am guilty. He placed the star, be moves the mountains, and performs wonders that our little minds cannot reason. He snatches and takes away. Who can say, why do you do that?

Although Job was God's prized position, Job spoke of despising his own life. Verse 21-22 "Although i am blameless, i have no concern for myself; i despise my own life. It is all the same; that is why i say, 'he destroys both the blameless and the wicked.'" This is deep and so low for Job. Basically he thinks of God not caring, yet does show that is power is that wide. Job is lost. He struggles to stay clean, stay sane, to be a man of God. He knows that he cannot comfort God as he was man, but just be left as the dust in the ground.

Job is not an easy book to read and is full of wisdom, but man, rereading this from my past, i see a lot that i missed and forgot, and just things i need to work on. I pray for my uncle freddy. I do not fear, but believe. You will shine in the moment of darkness and sin. Make yourself true. Then glad that you have given me this heart father. Christ i hope i make the right moves, im looking to you and do not want to miss out on the blessings. I...i need you in this moment as well in every other. Thank you Abba.