Pay Attention

It is difficult to stay awake. There is a joke that Chuck Norris never sleeps, but waits. Well it is true for Satan. He waits to catch me slipping. Especially right now when i am getting sick, it is not fun and having everyone at home annoy you. I just do not want to argue or fight, i hate doing such things. Then i blow up and i get accused or i look like the bad guy. Then it is easy to be judge for its not a common thing and people say look he is like us. Well yes i am. I am no perfect than that of a person who does drugs. I say this because i know and i have been down that path.

It says in Hebrews 2:1 "We must pay more careful attention, therefore, to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away."

I know that Father, You gave the world Your only Son to have us know Your. To have us live in a Saviors Love, Christ You died on the cross. You took my place and took everything bad about me. I forget that my problems are small for You are bigger. I forget that You made Your self even lower than the angels to be near to us. Everyday i have to tell myself to put my trust in You. Trust is my hardest thing to act upon. I am no longer a child and i wish many times to be, but Christ see me as a child for You brighten up my life. You make me realize what i have and what i dont have. What is meant to be lost is for gain and what is gain is meant to be lost. Help me to walk in the footsteps You walked. Help me to understand the wonder of the cross. Help me to pay attention. As i looked out from my car from my hiding place, i thought many things. I prayed and made my petitions. I will miss my hiding place for i will be moving, but when i come home i will make effort to go to the place where You light up my night. Still hear my prayers, still see my heart, still know that i am struggling to pay attention and stay straight, for i need You every second.