The Day Before I Take it to Him

Faith is hard to comprehend.
Grace is difficult to embrace.
Love is always present.
Hope is knowing in the unknown.
Fear is acknowledgement that your human.

My Journey has brought me to a place that i cannot try to do on my own.
Christ my passion in life is to know You.
Its hard when one foot wants to step back into the world.
I am not holy.
I just cannot walk the road where i once was from.
You know me and i fear everything.
My days are numbered.
I do not get younger, but older.
I understand how vulnerable i am.
Flesh is susceptible to so much.
We live for severty years or so
With luck maybe eighty
And what do we have to show for it?
Trouble

The journey at home and church have reached some what an end.
I wont be home as often due to school and i am glad to see my family come to You.
I have grown through a blessed church and now i feel its time to fly.
School has been tough, but i have been accepted to a school with full of Your gifts.
My career is set in some sense, because i found what i enjoy.
My dreams of outreaching is coming to light.
Wanting to go to Australia for a year is still up for grasp.

Yet, i could not have expected to feel so empty.
When i mean empty, i mean money.
I mean not able to have the other person see what i see in them.
I mean not able to see what church to land myself into.
I want to glorify You, yet i ask for my own fillings.
You see what i want to finally be filled in my life.
Should i worry for these things,
Cause man i been worrying lately.
Or just letting myself think to much.
I think money and finding the right person can lead to that, especially me.
Its so easy to get frustrated and say why cant she see me for what i see her.
Its so easy to get frustrated and not have the money to stand in this world.

Lord i take everything i got this week and lay it before You.
Only You can make me into the man You see fit.
When i was in my mother womb You knew me by name.
You make all things work for my good.
Your Love never changes.
You stay the same through the ages.
When the night falls i look for You.
I want to pray for what You pray for.
I want You for Your what i know is filling.
Help me this week grow into You and find more of You and less of me.

Sea storms are up, Jesus,
Sea storms wild and roaring,
Sea storms with thunderous breakers.

What You say goes-it always has,
"Beauty" and "Holy" mark Your palace rule,
Christ, to the very end of time.

I am looking for a shade of color in the mist of grey.
I am looking for the shining light of confidence.
I am seeking for what my heart knows is truth,
for my mind likes to think,
and i forget that i am yours.
That Your Love goes on and on.
One things that remains is You.
Its overwhelming sometimes when i write, because i can keep writing on.

What good is to seek gain when it will be lost.
It is better to lose for i know i have much to gain.
Thats hard to keep and i Hope You can teach me that.
Hold me when You teach me, because thats gonna be one heck of a ride.

This is gonna be an interesting week.
Draw near for i am looking for You.
Psalm 92