My Prayer

Father. I know that my words can become twisted, but please listen or at least hear Christ prayer for me. Christ you know my heart and my thoughts. Right now i feel tired and feel exhausted with this timing of school. I am glad to look for help, so i am glad to pray with prayer, but there is one prayer that i hope you can remind me how i should look at your answer. Tomorrow i am going to College retreat with her and as it is its always hard to be around her. I feel as i got to struggle to keep myself from making a mistake, or just feeling weird. I guess i still like her, but i would rather be a big bro to her and watch over her as if she is my sister. Every day i feel like i walk alone in this physical world. I seem to not truly find peace at church because events are in korean culture based and so on. I love my church and it people, but for my faith its hard to walk when i want to go to an American conference when its only me and everyone is going to RCA. I respect this, but is it just me? Then i am glad to have family worship with Andys family, but its not my family. It hurts to sit there and just think differently about my family. I feel as i still cant find my home that i long for. I guess i am not of this world. Deliver me from this and pull me through. I seek for guidance and i do not know what to do in this big situation of being in search of a home. I dont know what to do with school or my financial situation. I am pressured Lord. Help me and save me. Lead me from temptation that i seek. Hear my hearts cries. You know Lord and as of know i dont know if i should look at the situation as a no or as a delay. What do i need to see? Let your kingdom come and not let my will be done, but your will. I prayer Lord to not fall into temptation that i know is physical and emotional. I pray that you will guide me and like how you Christ asked you disciples to not sleep, i prayer that i can some what fallow you into that command you told your disciples. I am a sinner and forgive me of my sins, but hear my hearts cries. I know i dont want to be selfish, but your not my God, your our God.