What do i make of it?

Lord it is now the end of my semester and yet something tells me that i should not be slacking, that i should not lose focus. I and in a tense situation in which i am glad to rest and so on, but first i wish to spend time this summer with her and then spend time with you. I cannot see myself survive this summer without your loving hand being the center of it all. I cannot enjoy my break with myself leading it and i cannot be in the mist of what is going to happen at home without you near. Lord i ask you as a servant that you would take my prayers to the Father and ask for grace. Jesus only you are my master and only you can be my lawyer to the Father. Lead me Lord and guide me. I see no future without the love from you. I am not sad, but i feel this deep crunch that things could become hard this summer. The fact that my family is planning to separate, the fact that i have to help my mom and that money will be tight, the fact that i will need to apply for other schools, the fact that need to do my church leadership roles, the fact that i wish to spend time with...., the fact that i need to spend time with you and just rely on you. So much is about to happen and i ask that, Master please see me as your child that needs the Love of a Father. That needs the guidance of a Father. That needs the financial support of a Father. That needs the wisdom of a Father. That needs the time of a Father. That needs the patience of a Father, that needs the understanding of a Father, that needs the strength of a Father. Lord i need a Father, i need you to be with me. I feel that i need u in this moment. Be my center and guide me in the moment of every moment. What should i make of it? How should i see my situation in your eyes? I need a Father...