My Exodus

Father. Savior. I see my situation a bit better, yet i truly do not understand how to let go. I find it hard to be satisfied in this world yet by you. Lord you are my redeemer and bring hope into my life, but i think i have been scared of my situation and find myself not trusting you. It is difficult Lord to just trust you, because i am afraid that i will not get what i want, but i know you know better than what my heart ask for. In this time guide me to let go of my situations in a way that will be patient and understanding. Man i find this so hard to do because i do not know how to perceive it. Nicole was write in what she had said today. I need to let you just be the one in charge. I have to trust you, because if i do my testimony will be one of not of my intentions by of your will. This will strengthen me in my relationship with you and will also help others. When i heard the message last week i did not know how to view it. I was scared and was anxious for answers, but you continue to speak in the message and through the people i care for. I must be really stupid for truly not seeing things in your hands, but you are always faithful. I am alone in the world physically, because no matter what i try to fill in my heart, it will not be perfect because you are the key. Savior, please help me to just let go. Help me to trust in your love. Help me to see the situations in which i am not tricked by satan. As in psalm 67, i want to tell the world to praise the God who is loving, because of the situations you have made things happen in a way which you are faithful, understanding, and loving. I find it funny how much i have been blind, but i must not let it go. I can not let go of this prayer topic. I must focus on it and not drift into the mist of the situation. Also guide my prayers in which they are truthful from my heart and will not distract me from you, but rather rely on you to be trust worthy. You are the Christ who saves. You are the light in which you shine in my darkness. You guide me when i try and fail. Lord help me to overcome this big picture situation in which i will find rest in you alone. Can you see how much i am willing in my heart. My flesh is so corrupted and blocks my heart. Everyday i find so much strength in you, but in the mist of it all i find it hard to truly trust you, i find it difficult, but i keep running to you in all different ways. I love you Father. I love you in a sense when i fell mad at you i know it is for the best. Thanks Lord for being my Remedy. Thanks for being my life. Thanks for being in me. Thanks for being my everything and my creator. Help me trust you. Thats my prayer. Help me trust you.