Lead Me 3

First this song is on, Blink and the first line Lord i want to start off my prayer, by saying teach me to number my days. Umm Lord, i do not understand why i feel like i do just by watching this anime, but i think i am reminded on how i use to look at situations like that. Toradora is one good anime. But still on subject, i now understand that as i was running to find love, i would always come to you asking for advice, asking for strength, asking for wisdom, crying out to you, yelling at you, forgetting you, and everything. Yet it was you that would be there in a flash and just hold me tight. You in a sense was always happy to leave your house open for me, you are always ready to cook up the food(the Word) with the right ingredients and just feed me what i need. I do love you Christ, but it is still hard to trust you. I do not want to be saying i trust you in this joyful moment, but would rather say, i am glad that i can run to you. I guess what i mean is that i am still afraid on how you will answer and not give me what my flesh desires. I have so much to learn and will not know everything, even till the day i die. You come everyday in my life, but i still lose you. I wish to hold my identity strong within you. I love you and i hope to share this with the World. I do not know how you will use me, but help me to number my days, help me to trust you, and above all help me to understand you ways of guiding me. As your son, it is easy for me to get angry at you hitting me and taking away my toys, but father can you explain to me in the simplest of ways of why you do that. I am just a child. I try to call you all the time, but my prayers are not always true, or they are true, but are mixed with thoughts. I do get tired of how my life is, i do get scared of how my situation are, i do doubt myself and above that i doubt you, i do lose myself a lot. I do not what to think of her now, but all i can say if i liked her i would be shy and if i disliked her i would not know what to say. So thats it. I feel that the situation that was hard and painful for me was a blessing to grow in you Christ. I sure do u here my prayer. But in the end it was worth it. Its my own testimony to how i knew a girl that God used, to make a man out of a boy in many ways. I am glad she is in my life now matter the situation. No matter. I already had every feeling felt from her, but it was all from you. Truly it was.