My Decision Lord

Lord, time and time again i find myself alone, but not by myself but with you. I sure did hope i spoke of your truth tonight and not with my own thoughts. Lord i am glad that i can be that light for you and hopefully i am but not for me but for you. I do not want to seek gain, but just strength to trust you more. Lord what is it that leads me to think before i go to bed that i myself need to reach a new step. Lord i pray that you will lead my life into something new that will bring me someone whom you approve in my life as well make that person be someone whom will be you. To find myself in me is to find you. To find that right person for my life is to find you. I do hope that i have the right concept of what is right. Lord i find myself rethinking all the time, how can i let go. Why is it that i feel like i wish i can have a second chance with her. I am glad though i have meet someone like her in my life and although i regret someone things i have done, she has been the part of my life that makes me say no to things, she reminds me why i love you, she reminds me why your my savior, she remind me why i can be happy when she is, she reminds me a lot. I look back and i wish i can be sitting down on that same spot at the mall and just listen to her and laugh. Lord from here on out i can not give up on her. I do not ask for love back from her, but the chance to sit, laugh, talk, watch a movie, and say why the creator of the universe is so special. I do not think i can find that in anyone else. I do not think i can talk to someone and yet feel good. I do not think i can see my self with anyone else when i randomly i see her leaving school, at the library, at the mall, restaurants, then songs that remind me of her are played at the right time before i break in to a fool. Lord i do not ask for you to make her love me, but Lord a second chance to enough a night with her would be awesome. I have hope that you will answer, but i must be patient, and i must rely on your word beyond this vase of life. Lord move me into something more. I think she is an awesome person, i tried to forget her many ways, but its hard. As i find myself in me, i find You, Christ, and as i look for You in someone that can be apart of my life i see You in her. Lord i wont give up hope. I make fall like Peter, but he is a good roll-model of how we can be hopeless, faithless, and sinful, yet be saved. Thats Salvation, something that i forgot that actually makes sense in life and brings purpose beyond measure.