Your Love

Lord Romans 10:10 speaks about the heart and the words that exits the mouth. Lord they are lost. I am lost as a whole. My self seeks the comfort of something. Please stop me before i do something so stupid. I always do. Anyways. Man i piss you off, people, and i do so much wrong. Lord i want to be that seed for you, yet i am tangled by the weeds. I want to root myself in you yet the soil is dry. I want to be planted yet the bird comes and snatches me every time. Its me. I want to come to you, yet its words. Not heart. I want to be satisfied with you, but i do not find that satisfaction. I want to sing to you. I want to work for you. I want to do much for you, but i sin. But it is not you that needs help, its me Lord. So i wont do anything for you. Ill just be still. I know ill move, but please keep me still, to just hear you. Take away this darkness. Cleanse my heart. For what is impossible for man is possible for you. For you have your arms open. Yet, im stupid. I seem to be a hypocrite. I been in you family, but its as if i feel farther from you and everyone. I made to much of my life. Lord why do i wrestle with you. Why? Why can i not find you. Why do i seem so confuse. Why Lord? Make me anew please. Someone strong and worthy of your praise because i know if i can be that strong, it would not be me but you. Like Jacob, Lord you gave him and new name. Peter was also a name given. Lord sorry. i just want you to be so much of my life that i would not worry for this world, but worry if i have a relationship with your jesus. That my fear. That i will never be able to understand your heart, that i would not know you, that i will be what you say, when we think we know you but have no relationship. I do not know you Lord truly. Im scared that i will not find you. Or do u need to find me? I do not know. I am lost in this valley and i am looking for your love. Because Love is Patient, Love is noble, Love is peace, Love is caring, Love is not angered, Love is happy, Love is strength, Love brings hope, Love brings purpose, Love brings light. Love brings relationships together. Love defeats evil. Love overcomes sin. Love overcomes death. Love overcomes barriers. Love is kind. It does not envy, does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, not self-seeking, it keeps no records of wrongs. Always...Always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. This Love Lord i do not have. This i cannot feel. Where is Love in my life. I need yours. I need it like the air i breathe. I need it to be one with me, where when some asks what is Love i can say, " Your and my savior Jesus Christ who died on the cross for our sins and said that we will be a new in him. For he will be our oxygen and our strength in life, where he will save us every single day. That is Love." Thats Your Love Jesus.