Rudy

Lord why do i write to you? Is it to fill my desire of meaning? I do not fill worthy to be called your son, for i have done so much wrong and continue to do so. My heart is longing for meaning and love Jesus. I feel the fire inside. It is burning to do things right. But can i? I need you Lord. I have been so blind to want to receive what i experienced before in life. I continue to dream in a past that will never repeat itself. I long for understanding of my Lord. Lord in the end its about you, yet i make you second in most of things. Please hear my prayer Jesus. Guide me in my studies, my relationships, my family and my experience with you. I have failed you. I do not know how to live. Stir the fire for you in my life again. Lord, so much i have tried to do things in my life on my time, but my time is different from your time. Lord, please protect my heart and thoughts. Encourage me. Teach me. Love me. As i watch the movie Rudy. It is more than just achieving dreams, but also that you are in control not matter the time. I got to understand your love and your love. Like in Isaiah, you say do you not perceive it? Lord i do not in my time. But in your time. I know you will always protect me. Your time is different from my time. Please Lord, guide me in this future. Let me start a new with you. I wish to let go of some things, but help me to understand why they are apart of me. Lord. My Passion In Life is to Know You. Please come soon. For i can be all apart of you. I need my savior. I need my friend. I need my lover. I need my father. I need my passion. i need my truth. I need my hope. I need my Jesus.