Come Chase Away This Darkness

Lord, im hear at starbucks once again. Im so caught up on this world. Its as if im running in CO2, not able to breathe in oxygen. I do not how to live with you. Feels like im trying in every single way to just focus on you, yet it is not the same heart. Like Romans 10:10. Lord please give me strength through today. Guide me through truth and teach me your heart. I long for it. I long for your warmth and love. How do i only focus on you lord. Right now i just want to worship and rest. I want to just sing praises to you. Because thats when i feel the closest to you. I want to be apart of worship team. Because i feel you so close when i sing. When i play an instrument it is as i was meant to do so. So find me, stop me and take me. So come like the day. Come chase away this darkness. I been living here so long. I give up. I come wash away i built between us for i can sing an unending song. Lord do not fade away from my life. Please be with me. Be something in me that will shine like the stars in the sky. Do not let the salt in me dilute. I love you. Sorry Lord. Last night too was just, not cool. When richy said he lets do E and then go to church with bobby. Man how much i do shine. I shine this world. I really do. I can not even stop my addictions. I need you. Its your job to help me. Not job, but in a sense i can not do it. It is impossible for man and only for Christ to accomplish. You created the universe. You made animals do what animals do. You decided to place earth at a perfect distance from the sun. You made the fish swim, the birds fly, and the lions run. So much, for your almighty. Job surely understood you, while his friends didnt. Lord, please i am blind. I am deft and senseless. For your the remedy that i need. Your the ultimate source of salt. That is you. Please come lord. Hear my cry. For your the only one and the only powerful, loving Christ that can heal the broken and poor. Please also bring peace to those who are in worse conditions than me, for i am not worthy enough and they are who need the your life and love more than i do. Take away this darkness in me and in this world.