I Give Up

Lord Father i plea that you recreate my heart. I search for the right things to do and the right things to say. My heart has become solid. Every time this brings be to wonder why. Then again a layer of tough rock continues to overcome and cover me. Teach me Lord to raise up your banner. I miss doing what is right for you. But i feel like that i have been living here so long. Same situation after another. Like life has become a robotic state. Please come quick and lift me on eagles wings. My heart search for something more than my own life, yet i want to having full meaning in my life. Like the teacher at APU stated, i struggle to accept my self within my self. The self is you. It is your love. It is your ways. Like Matthew chapter 19, i feel like i want to reach the kingdom of heaven, yet like the man i cannot give my ways, my thoughts, my riches, my everything. What do i do? What do i say? What is my heart trying to break from. Why do i let my thoughts destroy me. I'm your child, yet i am so stupid. Please find me and stop me. Stop me from covering my heart more and more. I'm standing looking every where for you. I want to fall down and break this solid situation, to hear you and truly say i love you. But i cannot. What is impossible for man is possible for God.

You Hold Me Now

Lord as i look and reflect at myself, it is a difference that i see that is striving for something more from myself into you. Yesterday was a good example of how i saw those accept there faults and want to enjoy your word. It is a struggle to accomplish the right things in the world yet it is made possible by you. Like the rich man how ask you about how does he better his life and have salvation in you. He did not know how to give up his riches, but you make a way over and over once again. Lord i want to be like Peter and drop my net. Drop all the trash that i have been collecting and just be in your grace. By that i know you hold me now. By that i can say you come by grace. By that i can be confident in my savior. Lord my uncle is in the hospital and like how this whole week has been a roller coaster for all of us please Lord by you Love embrace the situation. Give strength to alex, to phillip, and to our family. So much has happened this week. Please Lord come fast the stars in the sky that fall to earth. Nothing is made in full with out you. Plain and simple it is all about your faith+hope+love. Truly lord i hope you keep coming to me as i search for you. I hear the sound little by little. My heart has become so hard. It has become the thing that you wish not not happen. Yet by faith, by grace, by your love overall you can over come these matters that have driven me from you. Feels as i want to step back into time and find myself and everyone else the same. But that is not growing. So by knowing that you have things in control why should i worry? Why should i questioned? Why do i let mt emotions play the role of saying what is true when my heart and your word say what is true. I pray that you can hold me now and not let my emotions and thoughts become the center of my soul, but your word and love be the center. I need to be back on tract with you. Like Pastor Mike and everyone has said, it is in the past and you, you are yesterday, today, and forever. Once again hear my prayers and cries. For its all i can do towards you. Please help my family and all those who need you. We all do. Forgive us.

He Delights in Every Detail Of Their Lives

"The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives."
Psalm 37:23, NLT
Lord the concept of you enjoying and loving every detail of our lives is breath taking. I feel so unworthy, because i struggle to know your heart. Like the song lead me to the cross. Lead me to where i am needed, take my shame and my sins and turn them around. Like Shane talked about yesterday, if it happens let it behind, but let the Lord take it upon him. Lord i pray and thinking for that to be true and have you enter in my life. But i continue to fall. So it puts be to shame constantly. Just knowing that when i go to that situation then i fall into sin. I fall into shame. I fall in to a situation that i pray you would take. Lord, like the parable of the lost sheep, i pray that the angels in heaven can see and you see that this situation makes me feel lost, makes me feel not with you. If it is your will i am glad, but to me i know it is wrong to you. It is confusing. Sorry. I do hope that you can make this part of your plan. I hope that you will become all of my life. Lead me to your cross. Lead me to have faith as big as a mustard seed. Lead me to something new and not be apart of the past. "For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." Romans 10:10 Lead my heart to believe, so that my mouth and mind may confess. From this is salvation. "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble
in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:29 Lord i wish to full take your yoke. But that requires wisdom beyond my logical mind for i cannot keep my heart, mind, and tongue as one. These three verses together are soothing to hear, yet to understand together and to understand with your love and wisdom is beyond comprehension. Lord thank you for taking delight in my life. Thank you for offering your yoke and rest. Thank you for your love. But to do this my heart needs to know you more, in which my mind and tongue will be controlled by it.
Guide me Lord. Lead me to you the cross where your love was poured out.

Rudy

Lord why do i write to you? Is it to fill my desire of meaning? I do not fill worthy to be called your son, for i have done so much wrong and continue to do so. My heart is longing for meaning and love Jesus. I feel the fire inside. It is burning to do things right. But can i? I need you Lord. I have been so blind to want to receive what i experienced before in life. I continue to dream in a past that will never repeat itself. I long for understanding of my Lord. Lord in the end its about you, yet i make you second in most of things. Please hear my prayer Jesus. Guide me in my studies, my relationships, my family and my experience with you. I have failed you. I do not know how to live. Stir the fire for you in my life again. Lord, so much i have tried to do things in my life on my time, but my time is different from your time. Lord, please protect my heart and thoughts. Encourage me. Teach me. Love me. As i watch the movie Rudy. It is more than just achieving dreams, but also that you are in control not matter the time. I got to understand your love and your love. Like in Isaiah, you say do you not perceive it? Lord i do not in my time. But in your time. I know you will always protect me. Your time is different from my time. Please Lord, guide me in this future. Let me start a new with you. I wish to let go of some things, but help me to understand why they are apart of me. Lord. My Passion In Life is to Know You. Please come soon. For i can be all apart of you. I need my savior. I need my friend. I need my lover. I need my father. I need my passion. i need my truth. I need my hope. I need my Jesus.

Lost of Words

Lord please watch over Alex in his time of need. We do not know your will Jesus, but we do know that your love is with us in every moment. Now alex's mom is at peace. She is with you Lord, where she belongs. There is a purpose in every thing. Please do come into his life as well as everyones life. We all need you. We all need your love Lord. I just do not know how to be one with you like before. Thats how i feel. I just know i am missing something in my life and it is not someone to love. But i need your love to help me rest and be with you. I do not know how to feel nor how to react in my life right now. I would be glad to see you come like the day and come chase away this darkness. This confusion, these thoughts, my heart. Everything that was one with you is being diluted. Lord you say to be the salt, i made so many mistakes where i do not know how to feel you out. Do not know how to hear your heart. Do not know how to take in your words. Your the source of life for all of us. Please find me and take me away. Take me where i belong. Let my roots be on your soil. Let the weeds that tangle me burn from your love. Once again Lord i wish that you speak to everyone's heart. We need you to come swiftly. This is an emergency. The walls are being built. The enemy is creating a strong hold in which is helping build the walls quicker and controlling the city. Roman 10:10 speaks that we be try with our words and our heart. Lord only you can do the impossible. I give up. But by doing that it feels like i am numb and do not know what to feel or do. I'm just lost of words. Although my prayer is for you Lord. Jesus to bring strength of Love to Alex. To comfort his aching heart and help him through the fires and floods that coming his way. For you say that they wont even drown or burn us. Thanks Jesus.

Anxiety

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)

Brokenhearted

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18 (NASB)
Confusion

For God is not the author of confusion but of peace ...
1 Corinthians 14:33 (NKJV)
Defeat

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair ...
2 Corinthians 4:8 (NIV)
Disappointment

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
Romans 8:28 (NLT)


Doubt

I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
Matthew 17:20 (NIV)
Failure

The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again.
Proverbs 24:16 (NLT)
Fear

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT)


Grief

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4 (NIV)
Hunger

Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
Matthew 4:4 (NIV)
Impatience

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Psalm 27:14 (NIV)
Impossibilities

Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God."
Luke 18:27 (NIV)
Inability

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
2 Corinthians 9:8 (NIV)
Inadequacy

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:13 (NIV)
Lacking Direction

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)
Lacking Intelligence

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
James 1:5 (NIV)
Lacking Wisdom

It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
1 Corinthians 1:30 (NIV)
Loneliness

... the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6 (NIV)

Mourning

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Matthew 5:4 (NIV)
Poverty

And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19 (NKJV)
Rejection

No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:39 (NIV)
Sorrow

I will turn their mourning into joy and will comfort them and give them joy for their sorrow.
Jeremiah 31:13 (NASB)
Temptation

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10:13 (NIV)


Tiredness

... but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31 (NIV)
Unforgiveness

So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:1 (NLT)
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9 (NIV)



Unloved

See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are!
1 John 3:1 (NLT)
Weakness

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)
Weariness

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)
Worry

Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.
1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)

Come Chase Away This Darkness

Lord, im hear at starbucks once again. Im so caught up on this world. Its as if im running in CO2, not able to breathe in oxygen. I do not how to live with you. Feels like im trying in every single way to just focus on you, yet it is not the same heart. Like Romans 10:10. Lord please give me strength through today. Guide me through truth and teach me your heart. I long for it. I long for your warmth and love. How do i only focus on you lord. Right now i just want to worship and rest. I want to just sing praises to you. Because thats when i feel the closest to you. I want to be apart of worship team. Because i feel you so close when i sing. When i play an instrument it is as i was meant to do so. So find me, stop me and take me. So come like the day. Come chase away this darkness. I been living here so long. I give up. I come wash away i built between us for i can sing an unending song. Lord do not fade away from my life. Please be with me. Be something in me that will shine like the stars in the sky. Do not let the salt in me dilute. I love you. Sorry Lord. Last night too was just, not cool. When richy said he lets do E and then go to church with bobby. Man how much i do shine. I shine this world. I really do. I can not even stop my addictions. I need you. Its your job to help me. Not job, but in a sense i can not do it. It is impossible for man and only for Christ to accomplish. You created the universe. You made animals do what animals do. You decided to place earth at a perfect distance from the sun. You made the fish swim, the birds fly, and the lions run. So much, for your almighty. Job surely understood you, while his friends didnt. Lord, please i am blind. I am deft and senseless. For your the remedy that i need. Your the ultimate source of salt. That is you. Please come lord. Hear my cry. For your the only one and the only powerful, loving Christ that can heal the broken and poor. Please also bring peace to those who are in worse conditions than me, for i am not worthy enough and they are who need the your life and love more than i do. Take away this darkness in me and in this world.

Your Love

Lord Romans 10:10 speaks about the heart and the words that exits the mouth. Lord they are lost. I am lost as a whole. My self seeks the comfort of something. Please stop me before i do something so stupid. I always do. Anyways. Man i piss you off, people, and i do so much wrong. Lord i want to be that seed for you, yet i am tangled by the weeds. I want to root myself in you yet the soil is dry. I want to be planted yet the bird comes and snatches me every time. Its me. I want to come to you, yet its words. Not heart. I want to be satisfied with you, but i do not find that satisfaction. I want to sing to you. I want to work for you. I want to do much for you, but i sin. But it is not you that needs help, its me Lord. So i wont do anything for you. Ill just be still. I know ill move, but please keep me still, to just hear you. Take away this darkness. Cleanse my heart. For what is impossible for man is possible for you. For you have your arms open. Yet, im stupid. I seem to be a hypocrite. I been in you family, but its as if i feel farther from you and everyone. I made to much of my life. Lord why do i wrestle with you. Why? Why can i not find you. Why do i seem so confuse. Why Lord? Make me anew please. Someone strong and worthy of your praise because i know if i can be that strong, it would not be me but you. Like Jacob, Lord you gave him and new name. Peter was also a name given. Lord sorry. i just want you to be so much of my life that i would not worry for this world, but worry if i have a relationship with your jesus. That my fear. That i will never be able to understand your heart, that i would not know you, that i will be what you say, when we think we know you but have no relationship. I do not know you Lord truly. Im scared that i will not find you. Or do u need to find me? I do not know. I am lost in this valley and i am looking for your love. Because Love is Patient, Love is noble, Love is peace, Love is caring, Love is not angered, Love is happy, Love is strength, Love brings hope, Love brings purpose, Love brings light. Love brings relationships together. Love defeats evil. Love overcomes sin. Love overcomes death. Love overcomes barriers. Love is kind. It does not envy, does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, not self-seeking, it keeps no records of wrongs. Always...Always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. This Love Lord i do not have. This i cannot feel. Where is Love in my life. I need yours. I need it like the air i breathe. I need it to be one with me, where when some asks what is Love i can say, " Your and my savior Jesus Christ who died on the cross for our sins and said that we will be a new in him. For he will be our oxygen and our strength in life, where he will save us every single day. That is Love." Thats Your Love Jesus.

John 3:16

"For God so loved the world, that he gave His only begotten Son so that everyone who believes in Him might not perish but might have eternal life."
Lord, i been lost in this desert. It is hard to hear your voice or even yet perceive it. For it is what my heart longs for. Lord in my desert i will still praise you. First off lord this feels hard, my life feels hard. Feels as if my senses are off. Lord i cannot move, i which to have you only. I longed for love so much yet i cannot find it and if i do from friends or family it is not satisfying. I long for your love. Lord i thank you so much for my family. Hard to say and i know i never tell them but i love them. I think i get this from my dad. For his affection is dry like the desert. But who am i to judge the length of love. I do love him and taylor. I love vanessa and i love mom. But many things come in the way. I love mama who lol, do not know how to spell in english, but even though i dont see her, she is my grandma and i am blessed to have her. I miss her dearly. But i just do not understand why my dad does not bring her often and why i never see my family on that side. Then i love my grandpa and my grandma. I do not know how i can live with out them. They raised me and taught me well. Especially the head leader tata. Man he means so much. He is a great example of a grandpa i want to become. He loves you Jesus. He loves his family and is full of stories and jokes. He is a windy =]. I love my uncles for they supported me so much even showed me much. I love my cousins. Seeing them grow is so funny. Watching the video of clarissa, joel, daniel, and mia at home depot made me so happy to see them have such a blessed childhood. Man i much i will enjoy having kids. Then my older cousins. I seen the bad and the good of them. Just man im glad to see the change and the growth. Then Gorda haha, she is the best. I am glad she is apart of the family. Makes me smile to see my whole family together. Just the joy and the atmosphere that nothing can match. I love my church family. For they give me strength. But recently it feels dry and different. I love jenny and ester. They are like little sisters to me and how i see them in the future as important singers and role models. They are growing up so quick. Then joe and sharon. Man i remember how little they were. Then jasmine and evelyn. It seems like just yesterday when they were shy, yet edger to learn your word. Then i did like eveyln at one point, but it was more like the admiration of how much she loved your lord. That taught me how much to long for your love. Then gloria and sunyoung. Man i miss hanging out with them. I remember when i first met both of them. Both shy, yet there passion grew like fire. It reminds me of myself. The fun times i did enjoy but sometimes it leads to a broken friendship. Sunyoung although it is hard to explain, but she helped me back then. She help me out of drugs and the trials i faced. I think that is the reason why i grew to like her, but i was shy and made the wrong mistakes at the wrong times. Nevertheless, she is apart of my heart like everyone else at church. Then Paul. Man that guy. I love him so much. It is amazing how he as been in the valley of death, but you picked him right out of it. He doesnt know it but he helped me so much to be strong. Along with steven and andy. I care for them. I hate to see them hurt as for everyone else. I wish they knew that i can see them and i pray for them. Nicole and Justin. I'm not korean but i sure would like to call them hyung and nuna. Because man i love these two to death. They bring me joy and strength. Just watching them makes me want to grow too. It makes me want to overcome my limitations. Makes me want to see how Christ is in me. They seem so strong, but i know they are like me and that makes me glad to know i am just like them. Karen is now the most funniest person i seen grow. Its as if she was so quiet yet is something more now and is becoming a strong leader. She had become the core of youth group. Michael too is the core of youth group. So much leadership potential and praise leader, but his flesh grabs at him. He has it, though. I pray that he will be guided with your love Christ, because that is the biggest responsibility. As for everyone else, man i see so much. They are all apart of me; janice, lance, andrew and his bros, abe, jdsn, gina, soo, tim, phillip, diane, peyton, patrick, ect sorry if i forgot your name. But sad to say, all this love that i have poured out is drying my cup. I feel like as we grow older we grow apart. I feel like it has become a burden to be at church and do things together. I miss the days when we were young. It is a struggle to understand what my heart feels. But i know its everything that is killing me. Including church. Lord i cannot find myself. I miss the passion i have for you. Lord how much i would love to praise you forever. Thats why i love church mostly, because i can worship you. I feel like in my general life it is the struggle to find time for you. Teach me lord as well for everyone to love. Because its one thing that i seem to cannot find. Not that i do not have it, but that i have yet to understand it from you and others. Everyone i love you guys. I hope you can understand that even though you make me mad or sad, your the world to me. I even forgot my close friends. Derek, mike, kevin, travis, shantal, grecia, angela, erika, kevin han, paul, jason, kenny, alex, george, jeff, shannon, jennifer, ect. But all this love is my strength, but my biggest enemy and weakness. For i run dry too...

The Dream

I couldn't sleep last night. Yet, when i did i dreamed of everyone at church. I can see the faces right now from my dream. I can hear there voices. I can feel the pain of what is there. Although not real, feels like i slipping away from everything. I feel like life is i do not know. Slowly though it is all slipping away. Like who am i now? Why do i feel like my life feels so out of place? Looking all by myself, not knowing where to go. I walk this road Lord, hoping for you to come. Save me. Before i lose myself. I can not even understand why school is so, so i do not know but like why do i feel like im just a robot, just doing what is needed to do.

Your the Remedy

Lord, Lord. Jesus. I write to you Lord, not knowing of what to truly what to say, but to just talk to you. Because right now this is all that makes me so comfortable. I feel like im someone yet, like earlier today my senses and thoughts cloud me from you. Lord i feel so much pain looking at my past things and getting the reminders of pain. Your my remedy and i need you Christ. Lord i feel down in a valley some where, i do not know what i do or what i see or even what i feel. Its just like i do not know. Please Lord, hear my cry for all my prayers even my past ones. I want to for get them, yet they keep arising over and over. I do not know how to take it. But instead of hoping for my prayers to be answer, i pray Lord that i have hope to trust and love you more as you do to me. From that i know you will be. Twice this weak you say Luke 15. I felt the tug to get up tonight during service. It was you. Yet Lord i do not comprehend it. I just, honestly wish you was near, so near that i would be glad to hear your whisper. Lord here you are, you came so lovingly, breaking the chains, and forgiving us while still on the cross. You smile every time we come back. Thank you Lord. I do not know what to do. Once again, please Lord, hear my prayer; if not, my heart, for you know it. Lord Thanks. Thank you.

I Will Go

I do not know where to go, or what to do, but i do know you will guide me Lord. This week i been tested in my faith and not sure how to take this. I do not know how to tell if it is truly you speaking to me. I feel so enclosed by your word, like if i want more from you, like i want to experience what many say is you. But am i that blind to not realize you have done that, or are doing that, yet i can not open my heart to you? Lord hear my cry for you. The same cry that David cried out, i need you Lord. I need you to be my center, to make me strong and not lose focus of my identity in you. So hard it is to pin point the situation that is tugging me. Like Brian Houston said, Peter himself got it right, saying you are the Christ, yet he denied you three times. Then he got into the boat and went after you in the water. He was walking, yet got scared of the waves and started to sink. Then Peter asked you to not do something, yet you said "Away from me Satan." Am i like Peter. Or am i worse where i do not understand your love. Where you love is more than truth, but protection as a morality for life. The laws are meant for morality, yet are broken with no guilt. But love as a law brings guilt, brings hope, brings change, brings something that you only can bring. Lord please by your grace show me your love. From that my life will be in your hands and will be filled with purpose. I will go for you, but my cries feel like they are not reaching you. I will never understand why or if they are, but that's for you to listen and do with. Your a loving God. Your a loving Shepard. Your a loving brother, loving father, for you bring a sense of security that nothing else will do. My past haunts me, my fears eat me, my desires destroy me, my envy re-characterizes me, my unfaithfulness pulls me from you, my thoughts cloud my heart, my anger murders everything even myself, my eyes separate your love from my reality, my mouth speaks two languages dividing my soul, my sense of touch deceives me from pleasure that you can only fill, my sense of hearing is meant to hear your word, yet is snared by this world's voice, my secrets and my sins kill me, where death feels the nearest it can be. I feel like the moon. Funny to say the moon too revolves around the sun. But also around the world. If i was the moon i would not want to revolve around the world, but the sun. Meaning you Lord Jesus. Yet i do both in real life. I revolve around the world and the sun. But what do i notice first, what do i see first, what feels like its closest to me, what do i face all the time. The world. It is cold in space and if i was the moon i would want the suns warmth. I would want the suns life. Lord the struggle for knowing who i am is tough. I need you only. This deception that our lives revolves around the world is meaningless. It brings a sense of joy that you Jesus, brought a way for the world to understand your heart and the fathers heart. Lord give me wings to fly. For i will go. HEAR MY BATTLE CRY TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT!

Lord, Set Me Free

The sounds of life, destroying my insides, destroying my identity. Its rolling over again. Lord, this is so difficult, because the pain is coming from every where. Yes, i was happy to be going to Water of Life, but a peace of me says go back. So i did, i sat there at church like i was no one. Like i was just there, or that at least how i feel. Its as i came back to pain and anger. This anger is building is, now become so mixed of problems, where i do not know what is causing it. I do not want to tuck it in again this week. It is not good. Lord, please hear my crying voice for your love. Just your love. I need it Lord. I need to feel you warmth, your heart, your arms around me saying "I am here". Because i, i, i just do not know. I do not know who i am. The fear of being alone is coming true, i do have friends, but the fact of leaving church says i start a new path with no support or comfort from other remnants. Then yesterday me smoking. I thought how much it was stupid, why would i do it, why is this anger towards you, why would i enjoy something you supposedly set me free from. I do not know Lord. Christ, what the hell em i doing? Where the hell em i going? What is this i feel? How much i feel confused. Please protect me Lord. Your everything i got. Nothing more. I need you to be in me. Guide me. Lift me up. Help me rise above this valley. I guess i am scared to fall, scared to face the true pain. But what is that Lord. Jesus help me understand, what only you can understand. By that just, i need your love Lord. Your Love CAN ONLY SET ME FREE.