When the Darkness Reigns

Lord you say that you will make us fisher's of men. You say that the righteous will have a place in your Kingdom. That if you sow mercy, mercy will be given to you. You say you are blessed when you have nothing. I believe you Lord. I truly do. I believe that you make the blind see and those in darkness come to light. This world is full of it and it is so easy to think we can figure our way through this journey called life. I have yet to truly understand you, but i know one thing, that your my only savior who will be there always. Lord i am so glad that you are touching Paul's heart. We may not have much in life, but man how much your love is unmeasurable to our standards. I know so many friends that worry about the future and seek to live lives thinking they have control. Lord you can give and take away. It is simple for you. But for many and even myself we think it is not scary. Lord the darkness is growing ever more strong, but be the light of this world. Christ remind me and everyone in your Church what it means to be the light of the world. What it means to be the salt. To shake the salt off like the messaged talked about at Hillsong Conference. Lord at first my thoughts about Kevin bugged me, but Lord just protect him, there is meaning behind this and your in the works of this. I do not want to judge him or you. The situation is what it is, like Paul said today about losing his wallet and then his mom finding it on his Bible after letting his worries go and relying on you. Lord i pray that you do the same. That in that your light will overflow from my cup and pour onto others. I pray for everyone at church and my friends for being able to look to you instead of looking to self. It is so easy to think you will be happy with your own efforts, but you do not give us trials to think we can be strong on ourselves, but to finally be humble and fall to our knees being reminded who you are and all you want is for us to love you with a true relationship. No other thing of this world will fill us Lord. Lord you know my prayers, you know my desires and you know my thoughts. Many times i am clouded with endless thoughts, with anxiety, with anger, and so many things. But Christ hear my cry. Turn your ear to my prayer and thoughts. Let me not miss your blessings, but be apart of your plan. It is so easy to think i can do it all without you. But man how much i need you. But i cant get away from your love. I always run back into you. Even though i feel like i cant hear you directly, but i see your works. Lord once again i pray that in my life you will be to just say "hey i know you feel like this at church, but soon you will be so blessed being here". Lord like today i was so glad to see Sunyoung like the way i did. Felt so good to just talk to her normally. Idk but i have been so dumb in how i act. I feel like i was a child once again and during this past year felt like i was not me. I was so unhappy with my self and Satan felt like he was winning, but you knew what to do. But Lord i ask that you cleanse me from the inside out and from that hopefully you can give me one more chance to make things right with the person i enjoy seeing. Lord it will just be awesome to walk with you saying wow, how beautiful is she and how you created her just for your glory. Self i know and daydreaming it may seem, but i dont know why but even though i went through a lot, i still think of her as if she is beyond every girl in this world. She has her downsides, but she has you and thats the biggest upside that will fix any downside any day. Lord please do guide me in every situation especially when the darkness reigns.