Yup

All i want to know is what can i do? All i see is confusion in what i thought was there. All im thinking of is where did i go wrong? I tried so hard to be patient, be clear, be me. Yet it gets broken again. I wish to ask you did you too not have feelings at one moment? Did you not see something like i did? I understand you. I know that you are telling the truth, about what you feel now but what about then? Is there not memories? Is there not something warm to hold on to? Wasnt there something? It hurts me to hear such words, but its different than before. I feel like there is more hiding. Or is it just me? Why did God give me this heart for you? Why do i feel happy when your happy and when your sad, sad. I can say your a blessing to me. You helped me through my darkest time in my life. I can say you sat down with me telling me you wish i wasnt doing the things i was i you wanted me to stop. Every night i thought about how much i was ruining our friendship. Every night i thought about how much you meant to me and i didnt want to hurt you. I mean the only person i want to lean on is you. I cant erase you. You are not like the others. I stop dating the others because i had more in my heart for you. I did not want to rush you, but i wanted to show you that i cared for you. That my day looked forward to you laughing. I wish that you would see me how i see you. Werent there feelings in the beginning or in the middle? I know there was something. Its not like there wasnt. You meant so much to me. I wish you would see to how i feel, yet i bet you want the same too. I feel so selfish, yet lost in what is now memories that are fading. I do not want them to fade, but they are. I do not want to forget the good times, and the times i was with you. Yet now all i can think of is the bad times how we fell away from each other. I didnt want bad from you. I tried to keep it in. I feel incomplete. I feel like i lost something, but now that is so far away it hard to know exactly the details. All i know is its you.